My Name Is Stacey and I'm An Addict

For those of you who know how I feel about watching a birth, this next comment will come as a surprise to you. I've become addicted to childbirth videos!

I saw my first childbirth video many years ago when someone showed it to me on a computer, I think. It was so long ago that I can't even remember the details. I just remember thinking that I never wanted to give birth after watching it. I was seriously scared, and that video still had frightened me up until now. So I know you're curious as to how this addiction began. Well, it all started with Joshie. We were sitting on the couch together the other day while I was on the phone and he was playing on the computer. I don't know what made put on the video but the next thing I know, he is freaking out and squealing. LOL. I look at the computer and WOAH! I only saw it at a distance but it was enough to make me squeal too. I NEVER wanted to see another one of those videos again. At least, not until I was done having children! The video that Joshua put on was extra disgusting. They cut the mother up instead of letting her tear on her own so there was blood everywhere. Seriously, it's something you do not ever want to see. So what changed? I don't know really. Yesterday I got a sudden urge to watch one. I really can't explain where this urge came from, but something pulled me to it and I just had to watch one. So YouTube is where I went.

Surprisingly, the video wasn't hard to watch. I mean, I did the "eww" squishy face thing, but I didn't want to look away once. Then as soon as that baby slipped out, I couldn't help but cry. It was seriously the most amazing thing I've ever seen. And that's when my addicted began. I started watching video after video, and I cried during every one when the babies slipped out. I can't control it! And I can't stop watching them! I've become obsessed with the thought of giving birth and not only can I not wait to do it myself, but I'm even considering filming my own. One thing I have learned from these videos is that I will not be cut! The video that Joshua played was the only one where I saw that happen; and from watching the others, it's apparent that it's not necessary.

I've decided to post my favorite of the videos I've watched so far. This video is absolutely amazing! It is a twin birth with absolutely no assistance. The mother literally pushes both babies out on her own without any pulling or tugging from doctors or anyone else. It's so beautiful and I encourage you to watch it although, believe me, I understand if you don't. ;)